I can't shake the feeling

I usually have horrible nightmares when I'm stressed. They generally have something to do with getting backed into a corner by bad men, or getting lost in a maze. Last night was a little different.

I woke up in the night feeling more terrible than I ever remember feeling, since my dreams about Mormon persecution (7th grade), dinosaurs operating on me (kindergarten), and having to save my sisters from the noxious gas administered to them in the back of the Honda by a man with a green face, by taking it in myself (preschool).

I dreamed last night that Danny and his older brother invited me to go to a play with them. I knew we were over, so I didn't expect to sit by him (there were others going to the show)...when we got to the theatre they told me to purchase my ticket at the ticket office. I did...and went into the show to have a seat. I wasn't seated by anyone. I was just there, all by myself. I saw a few friends from high school file in the rows ahead of me. AND, Courtlin and Chas in the very front row (I was near the back). I just sat there by myself, wondering where Danny and his brother were, feeling terrible. It was unbearable.

The theatre staff asked me to help them pass out cotton balls after the show (lol always something crazy to remind me its not really happening). I consented, and after passing them out to everyone in the theatre, I was instructed to bring them to a second theatre. A second theatre? ...I entered, and low and behold there was Danny surrounded by thirty or so of our friends, and other cute girls I had never seen before.

I woke up feeling neglected and alone.

I still feel it.

The problem with having such dreams is that I can't shake the feeling in the morning.

Of course this was all brought on by an experience I had last night, but I'm not going to dwell on it. Turns out, you have to recognize the pain you feel now, and that's it, you recognize you hurt today, and that you don't have to tomorrow.